||[Mar. 19th, 2008|11:09 pm]
I had really intense dreams last night.|
The first dream that I remember I was sitting in a very DMV like room, just rows of pew like seats, and everybody was in white. I realize that I am waiting to get into heaven. I go to the appropriate window and am told that I am going to hell because I am gay.
The next dream that I remember is that I am in a car with my brother, sister, and my brother's girlfriend Lela. We are driving around Roanoke, but it was a roanoke morphed with NYC. We were talking about housing prices saying this house would go for 2 million, this for 5 million, etc. The suddenly we are driving in the country and we pass by a church. I say hey thats is the church of a kid we used to play chess with. We go in, and I see the kids dad sitting in one pew(Mr. Henderson) and in the row infront of him I see my Dad and Granddad. I sit in the row behind my dad and just start saying "Why did you leave me. I needed you. Why did you leave me? I am loosing the smell of you, I am loosing the sight of you." Then I tried to hug him but my arms went straight through him.
Then I woke up not knowing where I was and just cried for what seemed to be an hour. It has totally exhausted me.